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tiramisu history(still part of game)

14 Apr

ok. after the not-so-funny “i love blogger”whole food, we should continue with J right?:P

J is for japanese apple. oh gosh my fav fruit is berries but apples from japan are the most delicious; juicy; flavorful; filling food in the world. i love them, I LOVE THEM, definitely apples again:)

K is for kabocha, i know many of you know this is a kind of squash, i actually like kashi instant creamy vanilla oatmeal/golean crunch original more, but did i say these mentioned food had to be real and whole?!:)

L is for lemon, for hummus, for raw cheesecake made with cashew, drop into grill fish or cooked oats. just another not easily allergic citrus i love.


maple syrup. uhh, i forgot to say,”M is for”, yeah, i should say mushroom if i’m a good girl but i really love sweet pancakes and sweet hummus and sweet muffins and sweet gluten free toast and…uhh…sometimes i even dip sausage with syrup=v=…don’t judge.

N is for nakd bars, yes i like enjoy life chewy bar more but theses are much more natural than enjoy life bars which contains brown rice syrup and gum arabic, even rice starch and evaporated cane juice. just another “vitamin-added-organic-cheating-healthy-food”:( umm…bad guy.

O is for oh~! bob red mills’ oat bran!!!favourite thing to add into rolled oats pie/muffin/cake/yogurt mess…or my fav breakfast stable—>3.2%fromage frais cooked with three egg whites and oat bran~!<3 so freaking delicious and healthy, you just can’t believe you’re not enjoying a piece of nice and warm cheesecake!!!!(uhh, u must add like over-load of cinnamon too)

so many for P, i can say PUFFIN, PEANUT BUTTER, PUMPKIN, PISTACHIO(not another great blogger, the real nut name), or…but i have to say the winner is PAMELA!!!!!!!!!!!no i have to really confess about breaking my own-set-rules but pancake mix(again letter P)produced by this brand is really too good not to join this game. i bought $199(like US DOLLAR$26)pack of this mix this time in my order!!!umm…i just can’t wait<3

Q is form quinoa, not so addicted, but just love its nutrients. when i was a veggie, i intake-d protein only from chickpeas and quinoa. not even touching tofu/dairy. but now as i eat so much meat everyday, i nearly lost my pack of quinoa, yes i didn’t touch that pack of quinoa for months cuz i just found my body needs real meat.

again R comes to a difficult question about being a good child or listen to myself.

i bought forty pieces of fresh rice cakes and ate three and the whole pack was dumped to the bottom of my pantry. on the other side, ricotta cheese is having like over three hundred calories in a tub but i’ll finish the whole thing once i buy it, just can’t resist eating it plain!!!!!!

i should put ricotta cheese. i’m just the one lacking will power/allergic to dairy, but this game is to share food-happiness so i should introduce this good food to you guys<3:)

oh my, S is more diffcult with chinese type spinach, smoothie type baby spinach, salsa(my new addict), sweet potato(no matter orange/yellow/purple/white), silken tofu…ah and maybe for jessica it’s skippy nut butter, but for me…umm….i think i should say sift salty cupcake.

yes, i actually don’t know what’s inside, maybe some ” bad” butter, “bad” eggs, “bad” flour, and of course, as a normal bakery there should be “bad” white sugar…but that was just my everyday food before i go gluten free.

this pic is from their website and the description is just so short and simple:”Valrhona dark chocolate cake, salty caramel filling and drizzle”. cupcake wins huh?!:P

will you say tomato or turkey for letter T?nope, as i’ve gone mad for this game already, i should continue my madness and say TIRAMISU, oh my. i’ve REALLY TRUELY CLEARLY OBVIOUSLY REALLY(really twice already huh?!)done a research, or actually we should call it a project becuz i didn’t only search on web for some alphabetical information, but really visiting over eleven restaurants in hong kong to try out which made best tiramisu…crazy?yes, i’m kinda crazy when i was super sick of ED that time, that 60lbs time.

can i post some of my project photos?:)have fun!!!!!!!!!!

正this is pcc,

正this is eng king,

正ok, again my fav bakery—simplylife,

正, 吃下沒有cheese味oops, can u discover some banana?but it was really tiramisu!!!this is from soho,

正oh my, this was kinda DISGUSTING, i finished the whole thing but wanna vomit, not regret nor worry to get fat, just really bad in texture, and this is dan ryan,

第一次食tiramisu外帶都有埋水果~﹗yeah hey!the most expensive but not attractive tiramisu in world! not anything really “yeah hey”, just umm…waste of money:( this is grappa’s,

角落位的一件tiramisusee my thin legs?this is near my home, forget the name.

正yes the words you can read is the brand name.

正ugly but the best. anyone travel to hong kong for a short i’ll bring you there, i’ll not tell you the name first so you can call me for a gathering haha~!:)

正kind of strange, really so wine(is this a adjective?)and i’m feeling faint after this, but still very nice.

正thin arm again, nice but too hot while eating this, so i can’t say enjoying it.

this is heavy, yeah this shot is thin fingers!!so many thin photos back!!!:P

正kind of boring already?this is also top few restaurants i loved.

正blah. don’t mention this. sth about paul? everything tasted so bad.

only felt good becuz of my best friend was beside me, not really that good, the sponge part was too like hurt your mouth,

i still have a lot of tiramisu photos but if you’re not yet getting bored, i can tell you, I AM. so should we continue next time if you guys get interested to my previous history?:P

(fun, actually nobody like to know more about you such stupid bitch<—self talk again)




know yourself game

14 Apr

recall my days of binge-ing on even clif bars(they’re so “healthy”and “energy-bar-y”!!!), i realized my binge action is nothing about food choices but my depression.

after reading a few blogs about “paleo” or”whole foods(not that expensive supermarket)”, i decided to know myself more about my real interest on real food, instead of keep my habit of binge-ing on snacks, especially “fake-healthy-snack”s.

firstly i would make the fun activity be a “A-B-C-game”. i encourage my readers do the same game with me to make everybody find out more delicious whole foods:) fun or not~!?:P

though all my photos in this post are what i call them fake foods, i just want to share what i’ve ordered this month and stressed that we still need fake food, just to remember in moderation<3(lots of love:)…)

A is of course apple, no doubt, i love it as snack, i love it in cooked oats, i love it microwaved with chicken breast…etc. i’ve thought about asparagus, but this veggie just appears too often becuz they’re too expensive here in hong kong so i can’t really eat them always. but apples are easier. duh, i just so simply LOVE it, do you?:)

B comes to banana. also i want to say brussels sprout but again they’re too rare here while bananas appear as like more than three brands. i used it in smoothie to add silky texture, i used it in eggy oats to add sweetness, umm…i have to confess, i sometimes eat it plain, but by like at least six bananas at once. duh again. don’t repeat my step:(

C is chickpeas. i thought of homemade cookies, do they count as whole foods? um…don’t think so. chickpeas are actually superfood and u can use them as red pepper hummus/peanut butter chocolate chip hummus/stir fry with pumpkin and tofu…umm…nobody mentioned that i’m such creative?!:P

D is for dates. it’s just so different to raisins/apricot/prunes…etc, though they’re more expensive, usage in tofu yogurt is so good that they give taste of caramel instead of overly-sweetened-stuff. but as i’ve said, they’re so expensive that they made me stop eating tofu yogurt anymore…maybe when i become rich i’ll return to them<3

E is of course egg i wanna say, but yes, i gave up trying it becuz it’s found REALLY TRUELY OBVIOUSLY CLEARLY allergic to me. sad. so? for me it’ll be enjoylife trail mix “no nuts”. yes it is actually packaged but it just contain real whole foods like sunflower seeds/dried apple cubes…etc, even their chocolate chips inside is XXX free; XXX free…uhh just sth really suits me(everything allergy girl:(…so poor)

F is…yeah hey~!finally comes to FAT FREE!!!! yeah i love fat free yogurt, fat free cheese, fat free soymilk, fat free duh duh duh:) i still love avocado/all kinds of real nuts, but maybe that’s my sickness made me so addicted to FAT FREE FOODS!!!!!!!

G is for garlic, i love my grandma but i can’t eat her and i love granola but i binge over one whole kilogram at once, that’s not a happy thing. it even made mt scared of it now. sad. though garlic is banded in yoga lifestyle, i still love them, in hummus or in stir fry things<3

H is for hummus. whatever dressing is not as good as it, it can be hot, salty, sweet, sour, so good!!!:)

I is for i love you guys!!!!!!!say truth, you’re really whole foods for my depression. what do i mean? like people say when you crave salty food, you’re just depressed and when you crave ice cream, you’re just jealous-ing someone. bloggers really mean so much to me and i got supports like i really meet you guys everyday face to face, some of you even treat me as best friends(at least i felt like this)<3

thanks so much and no food head with the letter “i” is as good as near how you guys treat me!!!:)


lack a boyfriend?

14 Apr

today i worked on three flavor of pudding:

1. molasses cinnamon-y chocolate

2. sun warrior vanilla sweet-y

3. coconut(wow i’m so brave not afraid myself to binge on it)

then put both used spoons into a huge bowl of fromage frais oats, umm…so much better now:)

after watching the new tv show, i would like mention a great change on me becuz of my sickness.

i don’t need handsome guy/rich business man to be my partner<3 but i really want him to know my sickness and don’t hurt me with words touching my sickness:(

i don’t need my partner really put me at his first position but i really need him to know my weaknesses, and plain boil veggie for me when i want instead of yelling everywhere “THIS GIRL IS HAVING SOME SERIOUS ED~!”/ let me eat some cookies when i want instead of seeing me binge on them but then yelling at me”YOU USED ALL YOUR MONEY ON CRAP FOOD~!” afterwards.

i want everything quick and simple, without guessing what he’s thinking/letting him guess what i’m thinking. i want him to know—I HAD, AND AM HAVING, A VERY SERIOUS ED.

i don’t need him to lie to me that i cook delicious food, but i need him to remind me, cooking oily food for others is not correct and is a sickness.

i don’t need him to tell me he loves me even if i’m a pig, because i know every man prefer beautiful ladies.

i know, I KNEW.

i’m not lacking a boyfriend-kind-of-love, but i now know, my sickness really affected me so much.

coconut binge chocolate(*^can i add purge?pie

14 Apr

after addicted to my wonderful recipe of coconut chocolate pie, i make it everyday becuz i binge the whole thing everyday. sad thing right?! yes. absolutely, delicious food is for us to enjoy, but i clearly knew that what i’m doing was binge, obviously not enjoying and so after the last piece of this baby, i’ll never give birth to any other:P

the whole pie went down my stomach within half an hour, and i immediately went to the gym but i found myself doing much worse than have some protein snack/clif bars, i only ran 120kcal and zero round of walk, sadness again:(

i do want to learn “PURGE” as i’m already having “BINGE”, i prefer ” BINGE-PURGE-ED” than to now my “BINGE-ONLY” thing. i’m really so fat and gained 8 pounds within this week, sadness three. ah, maybe we can call it eight.

i’ve worked on raw veggie sticks/drinking glasses of water but they just perform as air and did nothing making me fuller, and i just kept snacking on sugary food, especially when i ran out of kashi golean crunch/some other healthier junk choices. yeah, sadness fourth.

i’ve bought a $944 gluten free order and they’re delivering on saturday, which made my mother very angry becuz she greatly prefer tuesday, letting me more time to learn “THREE MEALS A DAY” like her. of course i like it, but can i? i can’t see any future there, though i really want it. somebody teach me please?:P

food friday

13 Apr

i woke up with a stomach ache so i cancelled the original plan of having hot coconut pie with cold fromage frais for breakfast; and i switch to this—>

don’t judge. this is actually only one hundred calories and so i grew hungry again soon and went into the kitchen for this—>

fruits are always good carbs while my only cold protein(normal i turned to turkey but i recently ran out of them) was fromage frais and i sprinkled lots of cinnamon:)

i got one more bowl of reheated fromage frais and followed by one more piece of coconut pie, now i felt really stuffed and was ready to visit my chinese doctor which was booked last last week:P i mean two weeks before<3

ah i must confess for the about 200g of choc chips i snack on with tv program…did i mention that already?:(

about privacy

12 Apr

one of the reason i made so many homemade food these days is i have no more excess money to work on those clif bars/gluten free cookies lifestyle.

i want to live like everyone else in my family.

ok, i must confess about this. i ate three pieces out of twelve with my fav tv program, mindless eating involved huh?!


what i would like to stress in this post is that many girls asked about how tall i am/ what’s the weight i’m having/ some bmi thing…etc., please, everyone, i blog about my life and food just to journal my ED life, and share with friends in UK/US/canada. i DEFINITELY don’t want anyone to post/share my face to any other website becuz i still want SOME privacy about my life.

if someone outside without ED saw my chubby/fat/ugly face and feeling so interested in how i made myself like that, i’ll be very disappointed about the wordpress/blogspot world and delete this forever.

i hope you guys can give me some freedom to record my “before and after face/shape”, which is not posting them anywhere but i can still keep a record for myself(only):)

lots of thanks<3<3

quick update again:)

12 Apr

after reading so many bloggers’ positive comments about my homemade food, i made this cinnamon apple slices banana bread after my “great” invention of meatballs, granola and pudding.

i didn’t add any vanilla extract nor banana oil so this was really “paleo”thing i think~!?:Pjust guessing…

after eating the whole cake within half an hour(nope, i should say after my usual, night binge:(…no one can help?)i wrote up a plan for this week to eat healthier and text-ed a message to my maths teacher(not really kind of teacher-student-relationship becuz i share everything with her)about my binge and ask for some hospitalization help?

about what i bought during shopping i would not show in large size pic becuz this repeating act will be too annoying to me, so plz click into them if u’re interested:) thanks and the next post will be about my fun facts thursday!!!